Monday, June 29, 2009

MJ Moments....

What's up, guys? Yeah, yeah, yeah I know I fell off for the past couple weeks but ya'll know I love ya! Well, it was like the shot heard 'round the world. It seemed like the world stopped when it was confirmed that Michael Jackson left us on Thursday. Ironically enough, it seems like he may be just a little relieved that he no longer has to deal with being pulled apart and turned into media fodder. We all know that socially he lived a very "unfair" life. Above it all he was a performer to his heart. He bled music and stained the industry. He'll never be forgotten.

So many Michael Jackson songs can be associated with so many wonderful, nastolgic memories. I read a post from Lupe Fiasco today and he said (paraphrasing), "I try to be sad but then one of his songs comes on the radio and I start singing along and smiling again." I couldn't agree more. So for all the MJ fans that may come across this post or those of you on the readers list, let's hear it.... FAVE MJ SONGS/MOMENTS -->>>

My fave songs:
Wanna Be Startin' Somethin'
Rock With You
Off The Wall
Remember the Time
Smooth Criminal

I could go on and on. Feel free to share. Peace out!!!!

Monday, June 8, 2009

Get Lost! - Testament of Humanity

Those two words may sound brutally abrasive and mildly aggressive but those two words have new meaning to me. I came across one (of many) incredibly gripping lines at the tale end of the book that I just finished. The main character is dealing with some internal and external situations and decides to take a sabbatical from people. You've got to read the book to really understand her need to do this. In the process she finds herself.... finding herself. I was very emotional reading the last two chapters. Mainly because I identify with her on an emotional and relational level. As the book drew to a close she said, "You have to lose yourself to find yourself." This is when the tears began to flow and I kept repeating that over and over again to myself. "You have to lose yourself to find yourself."

We've all found ourselves lost in love, financial hardship, emotional detriment, bad friendships, abusive relationships, careers, heartbreak... We get lost. It's called HUMANNESS. The trick is to not stay lost. Getting lost is the first part. The necessary part. The first necessary part of the process. If you don't get lost, there's nothing for you to learn or... find. You don't want to get lost so much so that you can't find the true you - the beautifully human you.

As I sat here typing this, I thought about something my dad used to tell me long before I started driving. We'd gotten lost on one of the many long roads in Raleigh and I started getting figgity, anxious, and nervous. I don't remember what I said but I'm sure it was along the lines of, "Daddy, are you lost?" or "Do you know where we are?" I'll never forget what he said, "I'm just a little turned around but all I have to do is keep straight. I'll find my way." And funnily enough, he always did.

So, the next time you hear someone say, "Get lost!" Don't get offended... get to work! Get to work finding you. That's all. I hope your Tuesday is fantabulous! Love, love, love!

Love without Resolution

In light of all of the things that took place this weekend, I still managed to muster a few hours to think about something that's been keeping my mind foggy for a little over a month now. I sat down in my sunroom and immediately my mind went to CLOSURE (in relationships). I came to the conclusion that closure in relationships is a right. Something earned. At least by those that fought through the relationship. Now, if you (or they) were the type of lover that was fly-by-night and really not a solid companion, then you didn't earn that right. But let's just say, thick and thin, high notes and low notes, mood swings and cloud 9's, broke as two jokes or comfortable and happy... you were there. Supporting them, encouraging them, praying for them, loving them. And out of no where things changed without closure. This is what I like to call... love without resolution. When you're denied that right to know what happened and why, the person that denies you of a simple explanation has emmence power over you. Now your rights as a party to said relationship have been deminished to almost nothing. Now you're left to try figuring out what went wrong. If you said or did the wrong thing. You're mind is consumed. Let's face it, it's easier to deal with "I can't do this anymore" or the infamous, "It's not you it's me" line. But when there's nothing said and it's just over, what do you do with yourself? (Question 1) Now, from personal experience resolution-less love only has adverse affects when you did indeed love the person. Now, I know the saying goes, "If you love someone you've got to know when to let them go." I get that...

But here's my other question: Before letting go, is it wrong to fight for a resolution? Even if but to ease your mind...

Just a question... Help me out! Have a good Monday guys!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

B.A.A. - Week Three

Okay... we're (or I'm) on week three of the summer book excursion. I'm on book four and I'm in awe. I've always been an Eric Jerome Dickey fan and he really did it with this one. PLEASURE released April 2008 epitomizes its title. Just a little taste... the main character is warring with her Gemini sign and is finding the war between abnormal and normal desires strangley satisfying and addictive. She finds a "pairing" for the twin sign in an ironic manner and this quenches her raging sexual energy. I'm telling you... this book is eye-opening, very sensual, and an amazing story. Not along the lines of an ADDICTED story of sexual prowess. No, this one takes it to another level. Ironically enough, it's kind of believeable in a strange way. So, if you're looking for something decadent to read by the pool this summer, pick up a copy of PLEASURE by EJD. Insane! It's lengthy but with a full-time job, packing when I get home, and eight hours of sleep I still managed to finish it in no time. Yes, it's that good.

I also received a book recommendation that I wanted to pass along to you all. If you're looking for something a little less risque and a little more inspirational, pick up a copy of THE POWER OF INTENTION by Dr. Wayne Dyer. I haven't read it yet but from what I've been told, it's a great introduction to Dr. Dyer. I'm definitely buying a copy and I'll share my points in due time. I hope all is well with you guys. It's Friday for me so have a rock out weekend and I'll catch ya on the flip!